Silence

Breaking
Hearts
Disrupt
The
Solitude
Of
Peace;
Grabbing
At 
The 
Soul
Through
Layers
Of
Reality,
Breaking 
And
Tearing

First Snowfall

Black
Red
Green
or
Blue,
All
Present
Distracting,
Teaching
As
I
Walk,
Stumble,
Fall
Along
The
Path
Bathed
In
White

Outhouse

The music has stopped playing and I don't have a seat. Waiting until the game finishes, I gladly help put away the chairs. A new game will start someday, and I look forward to the challenge.

un-faithful

Moving
Under
The
Mire
Shadows
Surface
Spreading
Filth
Cleanly
Across
Open
Spaces
Trapping
The 
Other
For 
Unplanned
Moments
Of
Solitude,
Breaking,
Breathing
New
Direction
And
Vision

25 October 2010

Words and signs stick in time and space. Outside, inside, nothingness all fighting among themselves for primacy. Where is my voice?

GaZe of Tears

Power
Outside
The
Window
Settles
The
Unsettled
Soul
Along
The
Journey
Long
After
The
Other's
Gaze
Has
Shifted

26 September 2010

I keep my thoughts and still they seem to escape my grasp.  What else can I say that has not already been said.

20 October 2010

Pain and happiness exist side by side.  The question for me is which is truly pain and which is truly happiness.

19 October 2010

I saw some graffiti yesterday on Liechtenstein street in Vienna:  "Time doesn't exist."  My answer: "Existence is timeless."

Streetlights

Pounding
The
Pavement
Of
The
Past
Finding
The
Breath
Of
Others
Inside
Ourselves
Stumbling
In
Agonizing
Moments
Of
Remembrance

17 October 2010

Wilderness

One
Life
We've
Lived
And
Buried
In
A
Fog
Of
Information
Wet
With
Regret
Yet
Still
Presently
Absent
Alone
Surrounded
By
Nothingingness
Ignoring
Others

17 October 2010

Kickin'

Slow
movement
on
a
cloudy
Mind
stuck;
Mired
thoughts
streaming
in
the
fatigue
of
yesterday
Kick
the
Heart
and
Crack
the
body

25 September 2010

W-TSE

The
end
and
Beginning
run
together
violently
Quietly
planned
to protect,
Isolating
while
still
visibly
Absent
from
dangerous
Times

25 September 2010

Distant Vision

Stomach
Churning
Inside
Out
Warming
to
The other
Unhappily
Happy
Seeking
the Absent
Joy

19 September 2010

Bullseye

Lonely streets
and empty
doorways
abound
with
The noise
of
comings
and
goings
As
a
Presence
moves
forcefully
unnoticed
through
this
arena,
existing
in
plain
sight
hidden
from
the view
of
others

23 December 2008

The First Day

Steps
up
down
and
over
on
others'
paths
finding
another
way
home;
pushing
on
in heavy
darkness
to
feel
the
light

13 September 2010

Cab Ride

A calm
presence
lives
beneath
perceived
burdens,
working
to
pull
open
gaps
for escaping
light,
setting
free
the unshackled
being

22 July 2008

Outside

Inside
the
inside
is
the
other
unhappy
forever
in
darkness;
sometimes
looking
for
light
other times
content
merely
to
exist

22 July 2008

Circles & Squares

Ebony
Ivory
Gold
surrounds,
visibly
absent
from
the
other's
gaze

22 July 2008

Hope

A
New
Day's
noises
awaken
the heart
as fresh
air
seeps
into
the room
setting aside
the
mistakes
of yesterday

22 July 2008

Missing

Construction workers
Dirty pavement
and traffic
all
pierce the
present moment;
seeking
solitude
and perfection
the traveler
moves on
to the
next
station
finding only
emptiness

22 July 2008

One Crazy End and Beginning

Moment
after
painful
moment
begins
in
nothingness;
with
each
step
leading
deeper
into
our
never-ending
mutually
self-disclosing
chasm
and
ends
and
begins
and
ends
and
begins
and
ends
and
begins

04 February 2008

Much of Good

Humbly
self-aware
of
The Other
he
stands
tall
below
all
lifting
up

28 January 2008

Found 'n Lost

Sitting
sadly
alone
with
others
in the room,
searching,
living,
struggling
through
a
solitary
mortal
existence;
seeing,
sensing
an
eternal
clarity
and
acting
on
this
mystery--
finding
one
another

25 December 2007

Bubbles

Floating
through
the
air
as
seemingly
important
events
take
place
on
life's
stage
The
eyes
and
mind
are
transfixed
on
the
off-stage
moments

29 April 2007

Scissors

Short
locks
of hair
cut
with
short fingers
remind
of simpler
times
and
clearer
choices

10 November 2006

Roses

I
desire
Roses
to
smell
As
I read
in
quiet
solitude
but
I
tire
as
life
only
sparingly
permits
me
to enter
that
peaceful
moment

08 November 2006

Lost 'n Found

Walking the glittering hallways lined with shops, I think of my family and my heart warms.  The dark wood floors reflect the images of their longlasting love.  Shops full of desires may distract, but only for a moment and then my mind returns to true desires.

08 November 2006

Change

I forgive
myself
for
being
me
and
not
the other

08 November 2006

Living Behind the Broken Smile

Rain whispers quietly
against the glass
as I sit her looking
as the once forbidden lands

My mind's eye
now aware of the vision
of the Other
has opened the windows
and brushes past my cheek

My future is now
living on the
other side of a parted
barrier
where rain now falls
more loudly

21 July 2008 (part II of "Broken Smile")

Broken Smile

Birds
fly
in
scattered unison
while
the window
seperates
the
inside
from
the green
hills
beyond
as
I sit
yearning
for
change

08 November 2006

Continental Divide

As
we divide
ourselves
in two
and in
two again
unity
fails
And
the
selfless
become
selfish
ever
dividing
unitl
chaos
seperates
infinately

08 November 2006

Reflections on the Kingdom

The
impoverished
veiled
woman
sits
on the side
of the road
in the
rubble
of
older buildings
forgotten
and
overshadowed
by
sparkling
structures
and
the
glittering
things
of
others

08 November 2006

Rustling Wind

Tension
mounts
as
the
moment
refuses
to be
captured
and
then
subsides
as
the
moment
is
experienced
and
remembered

29 October 2006

No title

Until
I realize
my
burdens
are with
the Other
my
struggles
will continue
needlessly
until
I comprehend
being is
leaving
myself
behind
I
will
be lost

29 October 2006

Escape

Life's
challenges
add
to the
weight
of
a
never
sleeping mind
and
freedom
is
sought
in
the
seemingly
thoughtless
and
familiar
habits
that
confine
the
soul
endlessly

29 October 2006

Rush Hour

I never
write
in pencil
and
cling
to
my pen
desperate
to
capture
the moment
just
the way
I saw
it
then

29 October 2006

Warm Steaming Waffles With LOTS of Syrup

Nothing to write and food everywhere.  You sit
comfortably among the masses and yet quietly alone.

The buzz of generations passing around you,
conversations betwixt and between.

In the allys the others hurredly move from empty
generation to empty generation, erasing the moments,
hoping to some day also sit comfortably and share
their generation's stories.

29 October 2006

Cloudy Days

Free
advice
and
the other
takes
over
setting
aside
freedom
for
an
obsession
that
confines
until
it destoys

28 October 2006

Silent Heroes

Empty eyes
full
of
longing
and
pain
remember
faded
bonds
of friendship
that
yearn
to be
together
yet
content
to live
peacefully
apart

28 October 2006

Friendship

Lonely roads
traveled
in
far
corners
with
cool
breezes
longing
for
the warm
touch
of
a friend

28 October 2006

The Audience

The
Other
recounts
a
warm
breath
that
spanned
an
ever present
chasm
separating
evil
and good,
offering
a
solution
only
for
the
moment

06 March 2007

Shorelines

Forgotten
years
and
Friends
traveling
together
over
the waves
of
time
And a
family's
tenderness
binds
forever

12 February 2007

Little Feet

Little
feet
looking,
stumbling
in
the dark
finding
Angels
instead

28 February 2007

No title

Bright
eyes
attract
while
civilization
climbs
upward
toward
an empty
blue
void
as
others
climb
inward
moving
steadily
to
a
more
noble
existence

06 January 2007

Asphalt

Driving
the
rough road
the
rear view
mirror
flashes
in
my eyes
affixing
this
reflected
image
to
the one
of
ill spent
lives
left
behind

31 December 2006

Doorway

Standing
between
the
walls
of
painful,
captured
memories
and
their
protagonists
A
Nation
mourns
while
rebuilding
the
Shining City
upon
the
hill

31 December 2006

Open Arms

Emptiness
Fills
the room
While
Hunger
stills
the heart
Until
Open Arms
find
the
searching soul

Now Empty
hearts
sit
in
full rooms
with
hungers
Stilled
and
Loyalty
purchased
at
the price
of
existence

Some find
Paradise
some find
Hell
As death
fills
a Void
and
open arms
search
for the
next
travelers

22 November 2006

The Errand

Inside
We seek
to find
truth
And
Our souls
Are
not confined
As
We live
Immersing
Ourselves
Into
the stranger's
Plight
Rescueing
Souls
Adrift

October 2006

One Crazy Day

My mind
runs
quickly
though
the forest
Leaping
over
obstacles
seen
and
unseen
Gasping
but
pushing
onward
ever
faster
Suddenly
I
yearn
to go
faster
And
slow
Only
to return
to
the
peace
in my
mind's eye

08 October 2006

Pathways

The addiction
speaks
to
the depths

Fantasy
dread
and more
fantasy

Walk away
and it
comes along

Years pass
days pass
always
present
Every
failure
is success
Every
success
is
opportunity
for failure

The body
aches
the heart
pounds
A soul
trembles
and decisions

From
the depths
rescue
is sought
inside
and
outside

Alone
stumbling

Together
surviving

04 October 2006

Violent Times

The Addiction
Speaks
to my
depths;
Fantasy
dread
And more
Fantasy;
Walk away
And it
Comes away
With me;
Years pass
Days pass
Always present;
Every
Failure
Is
Success
Every
Success
opportunity
for failure;
My body
aches
Heart pounds
My soul
trembles
And
Decisions,
Curves
to touch
to drink
to inhale
to inject
From
the depths
I seek
help
inside
And
outside;
Alone
I stumble
Together
we
Survive

03 October 2006

Abandoned

I am
Reduced
To
A number
Frozen
In time
And
I seek
To be
Heard
And
Find
No one
Who
Listens.
In
The end
When
I find
My true
Audience
My mind
Abandons
Me
And
The Audience
Is
Replaced
With
The
ever present
crescendo
of Voices

31 August 2006

Alone

Alone
My mind
Is free
And
I remember
Clear thoughts
Others
Understand
Me
Comprehend
My being
And see
My light
Until
the Shadows
seep in
And
In the dark
Voices

31 August 2006

Numbers

Voices
In the dark;
They haunt me
They touch me
I'm afraid.
The shadows
Live,
Will I die
As my light
Dims;
Forcefully
I am brought
Back
Into the light
And realize
I am
Alone

31 August 2006

Hallway

Why
such harsh
lessons?
The new
Excuses
And
Old rumors
And
Vivid
recollections
of others
of
an event
Never seen
Through
the eyes
of those
In the
story

27 March 2006

My Other

As the reader may have noticed, I am putting into cyberspace, what I have long since been putting to paper.  I have added a date to the end of each piece, I wish I could say to add some sort of deeper meaning, but really it only helps me keep a record of where I was at the time I wrote it. At some point in time I suspect my pieces will catch up with real-time and be more of a real-blog.  However, for now, they are my past put into the present.  0397

13 September 2010

Upward Mobility

I
Look
to the Heavens
And
free
My mind;
You are
there,
yet
I search
And
know
You are
here

27 March 2006

Pain

Hate
Anger
Envy
Life:
Fatigue
Pressure
Success
Death;
No
Rhyme
No
Reason
only
judgement
As
Time
ceases
to
pull
in
all
directions
with
all
arriving
incomplete
at
the
Final
Destination

06 March 2007

Baby Boy

The
deep
well
calls out
and
only
strangers
approach
the
story
long
since
past;
sun
drenched
rows
now
join
a new
body
of
strangers
who
hear
the
call

30 June 2007

Birds

Buttresses
abet
and
birds
gather,
seeing
images
of
themselves
and
others
assembled
yet
alone

30 June 2007

Dear Mom and Dad II

A

pen

strains

to

stay

within

the

margins

of

the

captured

story;

a

child

comforts

and

a

proud

mother

celebrates

her

loss

to

a 

higher

cause

29 June 2007

Dear Mom and Dad I

A

pen

strains

to

stay

within

the

margins

of

the

captured

story;

a

child

comforts

and

a

weeps
as
distant
choices
separate

29 June 2007

Knots

My
heart
churns
as
pain
and
agony
flood
my
being,
while
my
spirit
revolts
and
accepts
its
fate

29 June 2007

The Travelers III

Familiar

faces

in

unfamiliar

places

where

the

pock-marked

asphalt

yearns

to 

remind

all

of

a 

better

way

09 November 2007

The Travelers II

Familiar

faces

in

unfamiliar

places

where

the

pock-marked

asphalt

reminds

visitors

of

clashing

cultures

09 November 2007

The Travelers I

Familiar
faces
in
unfamiliar
places
where
the
pock-marked
asphalt
tells
forgotten
stories

09 November 2007

Bar

Images
pierce
the
soul
of
those
gazing
upon
the
many
walls;
Images
written
by
those
gone
before
hoping
their words
will
carry
their
memory
forever
and
mask
their
fear
of
leaving
this
world
before
they're
ready

09 November 2007

Words, Whispers, Thoughts

Words,
Whispers,
Thoughts
abound
of
courage
and
bravery
confined
by
time,
hoping
to
bridge
the
gap
until
eternal
peace
is
found

11 November 2007

Happy Birthday

The
glasses
are
full
and
raised
with
heroes
absent
and
others
present;
drinking,
remembering
and
forgetting;
carrying
on
'till
others
raise
their
glasses
for
them

10 November 2007

Detour

A
Lifetime
is
shaped
and
lost
in
a
short
span,
while
its
memories
continue
to
live
on
in
others

10 November 2007

The Gift

Little
fingers
curled
around
a
thumb
have
now
grown
and
feel
the
warmth
of
a
touch
in
its
heart

10 November 2007

Messenger

Standing
in front
of
the
door
a
message
exists;
time
stops
and
winds
backward
as
you
try
to
keep
the door
shut

10 November 2007

Surprise

Tears
held
back
as
Shock
overtakes
emotions;
doubt,
disbelief
and
denial,
then
tears
and
memories
of
the
best
of
times

10 November 2007

Sapling

Love
hate;
hate,
love;
Disgust,
Doubt,
Denial;
Anger bursts,
Patience flees
Love heals
And
All is lost,
Or not
Until
the next
Time

27 March 2006

Belonging

Walking,
People aged
And
Cities ancient;
Smells
of incense
And foreign
cuisine
Sweeten
My life:
An outsider
Among strangers
And friends

23 March 2006

Polished Rocks

Polished rocks
fall
from
fingers
clenched
and
lost

23 March 2006

Tears

Take me
with
to war;
I promise
I'll be
good;
quiet
And calm
And not
leave
my
car seat

23 March 2006

Little Eyes

The puffy lips
and happy heart
with thoughtful smiles
All
help me
Strive
To love
more
and
condemn
less

23 March 2006

Forgotten Ways

The
lonely
walk
down
dark
paths
obsolves
the
other,
smoking
cigars
lighting
the
way
toward
truth's
fiction

17 January 2010

Red

Green,
ordinarily
exceptional,
thoughts
of
another
life
warm
the body
and
chill
the heart

12 January 2010

Broken Toys

Dirty
nails
in a
pin-striped
suit
pull
the
little
red wagon
through
alleys
finding
broken
Toys

12 January 2010

Hard Powder

Bright
White
darkness
enters
the other
silently
creating
presence
until
its
absence;
eternal
dependence
pulling
the other
into
and
out of
the light

12 January 2010

Fateful Chemistry

Sighs
of
a
cyring
soul
shape
a
lifetime
of
suffering
others

12 January 2010

Windows

Curtains
drawn
try
to keep
out
the
Light
of
day
and
night
in
my
mind
as
the
cold
seeps
and
slows
all,
pulling
me
deeper
and
deeper
until
I
break

12 January 2010

Long

Listening
As the still
Wind blows;
Searching
And
Searching
For
The moment;
Finding
It
Distant
And veiled.

19 March 2006

Changes

Vision
of white
dances
In my mind;
The good
girl
on the side
now laughs,
Loves
Is loved
And lives
forever
the woman
In my heart.

14 March 2006

Lucky 13

Ebony
Eyes glowing
In the
Dark
With
a soul
Brighter
than noonday
A family
filled
And
Ebony skin
at home
forever.

14 March 2006

Sandy

Empty
Spaces
And faded
Memories.
The
Only recollection
Is
What
Is
heard from
Strangers.

13 April 2006

Choices

Slowly
The eyes
Move
Across
The heart,
Back
And forth
Until
A decision.
And then
The eyes
close.

13 March 2006

Bouncing Balls

The
Sun
grazes
the
brown
hilltops
And
the
blue
sky
is
interrupted
by
the unnatural
sounds
of
a
bouncing
ball
bouncing
where
no one
plays
and
the spirit
is
dampened

29 June 2007

Walls

Dirty
faces
in a
fortress
surrounded
by dirty
faces
on the
perimeter
streets
both
yearning
for peace.

9 November 2007

Parenthood

Tired,
Overweight
And angry.
Life gives
Us
A full
Measure
And we
Spill
Our cups
Again
and
Again.

13 March 2006